Introduction
My name is Gábor Pallos. Although I am nearly fifty years old, I did not consider myself a writer until last year. Nor did I consider myself a writer on the day of my last panic attack. Not to mention the decade and a half I spent living with panic attacks. Even when I was younger, I only took notes.
Today, following the advice of my mentor, Jerry B. Jenkins, I call myself a writer. I know that the uncertainty of my future as a writer will change with the publication of my first book.
But I will try to answer the question of how a note-taker and ex-panic sufferer becomes a writer here and now.
Where there is a last panic attack, there must also be a first panic attack, right? All I can say about my 15 years of panic disorder is that it was horrible. A decade and a half of panic hell, countless dragon attacks, and anxiety that kept me on edge between panic attacks sucked the life out of me. Man, it sucked! But you know what the best part is? I survived. Today, it's as if it never happened. Okay, that's not entirely true. In fact, I'll go further! If my dragon hadn't been able to lure me into hell and I hadn't experienced the fear of death—which I experienced a thousand times—then you know, I certainly wouldn't be preparing to publish my first book today, and this Divine Spark called Aletheosophia would never have popped into my head.
But the Divine Spark did pop into my head. And whether it popped into my head or somewhere else, I don't know, but in any case, I was the first person in the universe to learn about Aletheosophia.
In other words, if I didn't have panic disorder, I would never have started searching for the panic-free essence I was at birth → Without my search, I wouldn't have gotten into the habit of taking notes → Without all of this, I would probably still be panicking today and would never have made it to December 21, 2016, the last day of panic attacks in my life → Metapanic, or rather, not to mention my much calmer life without panic → Then more note-taking, which turned into articles and... → As soon as I'm done editing, my first book will be published: "Who am I?"
Gábor! You tell me! Is this website the Aletheosophia website by any chance? Because there's almost too much talk about you and not a word about what Aletheosophia is???
That's a valid point. But I thought I'd first say a few words about myself, since Aletheosophia sprang from my own mind and will be the theme of all my future books. But now I will be honest: although Aletheosophia and the wisdom of truth are a new philosophical movement initiated by me, in which – according to my belief – the reality and truth inherent in presence play the leading role. To use the theater as an example, let the lived experience be the stage where truth and reality are the two main characters, you are the audience, and the name of the theater and the play is Aletheosophia.
“Reality is only true in presence”
Now that I have perhaps talked too much about myself, it is time to talk about Aletheosophy. For decades, the reality and truth of being in presence has been clear to me. (Eckhart Tolle's book The Power of Now may have made it even clearer to me.) I am not officially a philosopher or a scientist, but I have spent hundreds of hours researching reliable truth and reality in my own mind. Finally, I found both in presence. Hurray! Or is it? As a result, I had to reevaluate everything I had learned so far. No, I don't want to throw away the knowledge I have gained through many good and bad experiences, but rather use it. After all, human logic also evokes past experiences in the present.
You know, writing a book involves a lot of mental work. Often, thinking, I mean creative thinking, is the hardest part. Nowadays, there is a lot of mental noise and other distractions. Not to mention other tasks that often interrupt the train of thought. Another branch of mental work is research. With the development of AI, my job couldn't have been easier, so to speak. Not so long ago, while I was deep in thought, perhaps in a bottomless pit, I stumbled upon a divine spark. A voice (it wasn't a voice, more of an idea) said: found a new philosophy! Oh, I know it sounds like I'm Moses, who was given a sacred task by heaven at the foot of the Burning Bush. Anyway, it was a profound thought, that's for sure. Since I was most sympathetic to ancient Greek words, I couldn't give the wisdom of truth any other name than Aletheosophia.
I knew that there is no philosophy without a main tenet. I imagined myself in the person of Descartes, thinking that perhaps something like *Cogito, ergo sum* would descend upon me in the form of an angel. They began to come. I wanted to move away from the idea of "I am, therefore I am." Who am I, I wondered, to imagine myself as Descartes? Finally, I settled on this, and it became the main tenet of Aletheosophia:
Aletheosophia: reality is only true in presence!
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So I consider Aletheosophy to be a new philosophical movement. As Eckhart Tolle states in his book The Power of Now: "Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have. Make the Now the primary focus of your life." Recognize deeply that the present moment is all you have. Make the present moment the primary focus of your life.
I would not claim that it was not decisive for me to realize the profound truth and reality of Eckhart Tolle's astonishing statement. In truth and in fact, according to my belief, this is pure Aletheosophy. In my sober judgment, the wisdom of truth is only possible through lived experience. And lived experience can only happen in the present moment. This resonates strikingly with the famous phrase in Exodus 3:14, the Hebrew "Ehyeh asher ehyeh." “And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you.” The divine eternity of I AM and the infinite moment of deep I in presence seem to me to be one and the same.
What is the essence of the philosophy of Alétehosophia? In a nutshell, it is being in presence. And what do you mean by good faith? Well, I consider all thoughts directed toward the past and the future to be at least good faith. At the same time, I also know that we base our knowledge on the knowledge of our predecessors, and thus we move forward with the times. However, what the future holds is becoming less and less certain. Here and now, in a sea of uncertainty, it may be worthwhile to sometimes settle on solid ground. Could it be that this island of solid ground is called Aletheosophia?
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I confess that ever since it popped into my head like a divine spark, like a tiny ember under my feet, it has not left me alone. I would not say that it has already achieved its goal; I have much more in store for it.
One of the last spiritual stages of Buddha's enlightenment is sometimes depicted as a wooden boat swimming against the current. I see Aletheosophia in that boat and wait for a miracle: for it to swim against the current. I believe it is pointless to suggest this to myself. We need more people! I thank you in advance for any help you can offer.
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It can only be understood in the present lived experience. All understanding requires logic. Logic only exists in the present. Understanding this is an essential foundation, even if one wants to build another Tower of Babel.